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I cannot believe it's been a year and a half since I last updated this! If I think of the things that have changed from then to now, from the little ones to the significant ones, it's been a huge roller-coaster that I can't even begin to fully explain. 

So if we pretend that these 18 months never happened, and we go to current events -- I was just in Orlando, Florida for a week. It was my first time, and it was for a work-related trip, but even with all the missed meals, missed sleep, missed occasions to go relax a little, it was a lot of fun. The humidity didn't hit as hard as expected, after all the "training" I got back when I lived by the sea forever ago, and the convention I attended went admittedly better than expected. My hair was a constant mess, and I was always sweaty, and the air conditioning/outside weather temperature difference fucked up my throat as usual, but we accomplished a lot and yesterday we even had time to go to Disneyworld. 

So, Disneyworld was AMAZING. I wish we could have spent days in it. We didn't do a lot of rides, but just going around and seeing everything was a lot of fun. The place is absolutely incredible, from the level of detail given to every little decoration to the massive buildings, parades, and rides. It was an inspiration in so many ways, from marketing to home to art ideas. If you want to be spammed with pictures, including one where I look like an idiot, message me on whatsapp or whatever it is we stay in touch with. (:

Other than that, well, we adopted our second dog a few months ago, a a 7-year-old white poodle called Jack. He had fleas, matted fur, bad teeth, resource-guarding, you name it. He didn't even know basic commands. He is slowly improving, although Alfie isn't thrilled still (what would you do if you suddenly had to share your favourite people with another?). Alfie is the Goodest of Boys, though, so he is learning too.

Life has been quite crazy with everything happening, and sometimes I get quite overwhelmed with everything, especially my own feelings and shortcomings. It's been almost 10 years since I joined DeviantArt, and I'm still that person I was back then in many ways. And in many feelings.

How are you folks doing? Let's catch up!
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from my own mind.

I usually don't do this, but it's late enough for me to be exhausted yet unusually active, so have some babbling.
Actually, maybe I do usually do this. Am I getting old for the adolescent journals?

Work has been incredibly stressful on me lately. While I definitely feel valued where I'm at, it's also a job that I landed, more than the job I'd have chosen if I could have chosen - and I find myself struggling with the company ideals (which are in conflict with my own), and with the endless issues that come up every day. I was never good at separating work life and private life, and with the position I currently have, the line becomes blurry as I'm always reachable on my phone - and while it's definitely handy, it leads to people thinking you are always at their disposal, which is incorrect, and sort of disrespectful as it seems to assume I don't have a life of my own.

I think that it would be easier to manage, feelings-wise, if this same situation had taken place in my home country. But here, I feel without a support network of any kind - and it's hard to confide in my friends back in Italy, because as sad as it is, my relationship with them has changed dramatically. We're not as close as we used to be, in every sense of the word. :hmm: they are "best friends" I can't open my heart to anymore when it comes to certain things.

And then there is a thing in my life, with a peculiar orbit of its own; that moves away for a while, as the seasons go, but always eventually comes back. I think the reason why everything has been stressing me more than usual lately is that this feeling made its way back to me, and it won't let go. And while the easy solution is of course "talk about it and get it off your chest"... yeah. ;) not everything can be cured that way, haha.

I need a vacation. Anyone have a couch I can sink in? :P I come with the incredible perk of "watch me as I sleep for 14 hours straight, and then maybe we can do something together."

And last but not least, how are you doing?
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Hello everyone! You haven't seen much from me in a while, and I guess this is me trying to explain things a little bit, especially if you see my little heart replaced with a toilet medal symbol.

I've always thought that the person we're most accountable to is ourselves, and I knew when I was made a CV that this was going to be a steep road for me, and a huge commitment - I immigrated to the US on May 22, 2015, and was made CV not more than two days later... a crippling combination. :lmao: but I figured that I would keep myself in check, stay busy, and step down if I saw I couldn't handle it, right?

Well, it's really easier said than done. Being a CV has probably been my favourite experience on DA, and even when I realized I was struggling to keep up with all I wanted to do for the community, I was holding onto that ideal of "things will be better soon". Sort of like when you outgrow your favourite pair of skinny jeans but you keep them in the drawer for a year and a half hoping your bones will shrink back to fit them, you know? :giggle:

And so 2 months passed, really. You haven't seen me around since August, probably, and the truth is that life has been sorta hard for me. When I say hard, though, don't misunderstand me - Voldy and I both have a pretty secure full time job, we have the best dog in the world, we have enough money to have fun and live, we are healthy... you could really say we have nothing to complain about, and you'd be right. :shrug: but it feels like I'm living an alien life sometimes, in a country that is not my own, away from my family and far from my friends. Having left my country when I was 26, it sort of feels like I'm missing the best years of my life with both family and friends; my adult years where I can have a grownup relationship with my parents while we're both still young, the years where my friends have their first kids and slowly become families, the weddings and the endeavours they take as young entrepreneurs dreaming to change the world.

And on top of that, adult life can eat you up. There is an endless supply of things to do when you get home, especially when you're an adult and the home is your home - no grownups to clean around, make your food, keep the cupboards stocked, the plants watered and the dog exercised. But while normally you have a lot of offsetting factors as well - the drink with your friends, shopping with your mother, a hike with your dad, a videogame battle with your brother, a sleepover at your best friend's house - as a person in a new country, without friends or a social circle of any kind, it's a harsh battle. I've always enjoyed solitude, but I always chose it, and it doesn't feel the best when it's pretty much the only choice.
(and yes, I have a husband - I wouldn't be here if I didn't. But your husband is not your life, or your servant. You can't dump all the chores on him and you can't expect him to be your whole life and circle of friends)

Sometimes I thought to myself that maybe I should just quit my job, but truth be told, as an adult, when you need to cut things you need to cut the optional ones first and keep the ones that actually contribute to your condition of life. :hmm: 

Long story short, while I can't complain about many things in our life, I also struggle to keep up sometimes. So when I have a minute to spare after having been away for eleven hours between commute and work time, I indulge other things; I watch anime, I write a story, I bake, I paint my nails, I play with my dog, I take a nap... I prioritize on things that make me happy and don't feel like "work". I've always believed being a CV was a commitment, and I don't really care if others disagree, to me it is: but truthfully, it's not a commitment I could deal with mentally, and it made me guilty to not be able to live up to it. And as you know, when you're guilty you're so busy feeling guilty that you waste hours thinking about it instead of acting to resolve it, which causes even more guilt, which piles up stress on your shoulders like you're Crash Bandicoot run over by a boulder.

I've always known mixing expat+CV wasn't going to be the easiest thing, but I wasn't going to pass up on the CV opportunity and I tried to do it justice for as long as I could. I really apologise for being so flaky in the last couple of months but I'm also almost proud I could cut the umbilical cord soon enough. :') I've seen people being inactive for half a year before stepping down and I'm glad I had the sense to do so sooner.

So yeah, the above is just me being 100% honest with you guys, because it's fair. I don't want a hug or a "it's going to be okay," really, I just figured that with all everyone has given me here, I owed you a small explanation of why I left the coolest Community Volunteering team in the whole world. :giggle:

:heart: I'll be scraping my life together a little and probably be more present soon. Don't think you're done with me.

Hugs and kisses,

- Erika
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Whether you are a beginner or a pro at poetry writing, you know the feeling of staring at a blank page - the desire of putting into words what is so clear in your head... and the delusion of not being able to do so. 

But theWrittenRevolution 's staff is here to help! Today marks the start of our poetry workshop, and this one is all about the process of writing a poem. Every participant will start from scratch and we'll help you create a poem from start to finish.

The workshop is both going to be interactive and independent. This means that 1, we'll be helping you on the way with advice, chat events, and interactions on blog entries and 2, you can do the workshop on your own as well and start anytime you want to, any step of the way. This means that if you already have a poem draft you can skip the part where we come up with the first ideas, and join the polishing stage!

Of course, we'll be exploring only a few of the countless techniques that are out there to help you create poetry: it would be impossible to go through every single way to get inspired and edit your own work to perfection! But it is our hope to teach you something that you can always resort to and that hopefully will always help at least a little in your literary endeavours. And of course, you can suggest your method in the comments section!

Today we start with something simple: how to get inspiration!

Inspiration, that sneaky bitch


Yep, we've all been there - cursing at the lack of inspiration, burning with the will to write poetry but not being inspired by any subject in the world.

There are countless techniques and ways to help your creativity start itself up. Some simple ones are:

  • The 52 Week Challenge! For example, the group SixWordStories once did one of these (52 Week Six Word Story Challenge! - Week 01 ) and they are usually a lot of fun!
  • The 100 Themes Challenge! This challenges you to write 100 pieces around the themes listed. The group 100ThemesChallenge has different variations on this (Variation 1 , Variation 2 and so on) and while the "themes" are basic, they are usually ones that people easily relate to and can use as a starting point.
  • Prompts! There are so many around DeviantArt alone (tWR has their own monthly ones, latest is September tWR Prompt: Anger) and they really help by giving you a "contour" you can fill in as you wish.We recommend watching HugQueen and following her Love DA Lit series because she tends to list a lot of writing opportunities right there (latest issue is Love DA Lit: Issue 239).

We'll be discussing a couple of other, slightly more complex, ways to get inspiration as well.

Take a "moment" out of your poem



Let's say that you went on a hike last week - more often than not, if you try to write down the whole experience through a poem, the sensory overload from it will translate into an overloaded poem as well, where there's too many ideas put together that don't really connect and the reader, confused, simply hops from one to the other.

It's important to keep in mind that while sometimes poetry tells a story, sometimes it just tells of a moment IN the story - and that, especially when you are struggling to write, can be the difference between staring at a blank page and putting pen to paper. The "sensory overload" that I spoke of before is the sum of all the great things you saw, smelled, touched, and experienced on your hike: and sometimes you just need to pick one, and follow where it takes you.

Example: I went on a hike with a friend some time ago, and on a tree, a woodpecker had made a perfect asterisk shape (picture: Woodpecker). I'm not an expert, so I've no idea if that is common or not! To me, it was just a fucking awesome thing, and I took a picture because it was so weird :lol: we also got to see a waterfall, a rainfall on a nearby mountain, and while we started the hike under the sun, by the time we were almost back it was snowing! So there were a lot of awesome things. If I were to write a poem on the whole hike, there'd be so much to say. But it becomes easier when I just focus on that one peculiar detail.

A woodpecker's doodle, the
bored art of a lonely bird; I
weave stories for it, wonder
its meaning - as if placed there
to photograph, a forgotten footnote
for an untouched landscape.

And there we go, a draft was born (regardless of quality, it was born :shifty:)! The woodpecker's shape being an asterisk made me think of "additions" to a text, and footnotes, and doodles. Then I realized that sometimes we think too much of insignificant things - I mean, the woodpecker surely doesn't know he made a specific shape, he just does what a woodpecker does. But we still think about it.

Which brings us to the next way to get inspiration...

The Stream of Consciousness, or Association



Getting inspiration sometimes takes something more than just a good idea, right? Just saying "write about spring" isn't going to cut it when you're already going through a mild-to-severe writer's block or you just can't write on demand like that.

That's when you can use the "stream of consciousness" idea to help you get inspired. Start with an idea, and let it take you - make connections between it and things that are relevant to you or your life, and don't stop until you feel that you have enough ideas written down.

Example: Let's say that I do want to write about spring but it's the kind of broad, all-encompassing thing that it's hard to write about just because you could say pretty much anything about it... and everyone has written about spring before, so originality is a concern as well!

I'll start writing things down, with the idea of spring in mind and just letting my mind go free after that, until I find something that strikes my fancy.

Spring, light between the trees, squirrels, the day we moved into our new apartment, playing ball with Alfred, he seriously does not know how to play with a frisbee, the park where I went to do yoga with my co-worker Katie, her kid trying to make us fall when we did the poses, iced tea, I can make the same tea leaves hot in winter.

There it is. I feel like all of them are good ideas, but the very last thing is what hit me - tea. I LOVE tea, I always make it, and what I mentioned up there is true - I use the same tea leaves, but I brew iced tea in warmer weather and hot tea in colder one. We could say that it's my constant throughout the seasons. :giggle: so why not use write about tea and how it ties in with seasons?

I carry the seasons in
a tumbler, iced or steaming
safe within steel walls.

A brew of ripening berries, with
hibiscus petals in bloom
a strong serving of mate
and a sharp hint of lemon -
an awakening whirlwind of
flavours, a welcome
morning tradition.

:shrug: truth be told, I don't like the two last verses, but that's what revision is for. This poem may not be so much about spring as it is about the constant of tea across seasons, but the images of the berries, hibiscus, mate and lemon are meant to sort of evoke spring, or at least they do for me. They'll be worked on during the workshop to make that connection the best it can be! (:

The Poem That Came From Prose



If you are having a hard time coming up with an idea for a poem, you can always look at something you wrote previously. I like doing this by using my prose, because there is usually a moment in each story that can be turned into an awesome poem! It's also easier because you can't really plagiarize your own work. :lol: you can use someone else's, but that always poses the question "am I taking inspiration from, or copying words from the story to make a poem?" which can become a real hassle. :paranoid: 

Example: using the flash story The Celery Murder, I'll come up with a poem based on a moment within it. I've been told that the image of the pan boiling happily was well-made, so I'll use that as a starting point.

Clink, clink, clink -
the boiling pan recants 
that evening's events, but the
detectives don't speak its
tongue.

She tries her best to
free her mistress from guilt. Her
steam runs out as Mrs. Potts
confesses, condensate tears
lining her lid.

I thought it would be fun to talk from the pan's perspective. :D she probably witnessed everything and thought her lovely patron Mrs.Potts was right doing what she did. After all, if our kettles and pots had a soul, they'd be like our pets - loyal and loving.


So, that's it for now! We hope this helps you find ways to get inspired and get your poem started. What are your favourite ways to get inspiration? Tell us in the comments!


We will hold a chat event on Saturday, September 17 where we will help you find inspiration for your poem for this workshop. :la: stay tuned for updates regarding that!



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The DeviantArt community is all about the llamas, whether you like them, love them or ignore them they are everywhere. And it's cool to collect them, but however many we have, they're just that - virtual llamas on a screen!

But our very own raspil and the crew of incredible writers featured in the Scream Anthology (which you can purchase on Amazon here) have a solution for you. :eyes: all proceeds from the sales of that anthology go to Heifer International,  to contribute towards the donation of a real llama to a family who needs it.

You can read more about this here on Heifer's page: www.heifer.org/gift-catalog/an…

And on raspil's journal here:  We did it for REAL! + real actual llamas!! + b:star: 8-22-16 -- i'll be getting another royalty for the llama on the 29th -- when i get that number, i will report it. i thought it was $63 but that might change. look for a contest in the next month :-) 
:star::star: 8-29-16 -- llama fund is up to $82.36
i hate recycling this journal but i'm still gonna
:idea: 9-6-16 -- I made a personal forum post because I can for those who want to promote their self-published book:  http://raspil.deviantart.com/journal/forum/2229186/
:heart:  9-21-16 -- $22.82 more for the llama fund coming on the 29th :boogie: we're now up to $104.68.  let's keep this momentum going, we only need another 45 bucks to help out our friends in need :love: :iconllama1plz:
:w00t: 9-29-16 -- up to $110 :boogie: only $40 more to go and it's llama time
UPDATE!!
for those who are in the Scream Anthology... https://www.amazon.com/Kicking-Screaming-collection-short-stories/dp/1533216819/ref=s


Wouldn't it be cool for DeviantArt people to actually contribute towards making someone's life better? Not only that: purchase the book and you will get to read stories by DA writers that made their way to print. We all sometimes have thought that DA is just a place to share our writing and it will never really take us anywhere, and this anthology proves us wrong.

So go ahead, read more about it, and help us donate as many llamas as possible! (the book is just $10 and the stories are awesome. come on)

:heart: :llama: :heart:

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